Days are alike but feelings are various.
Yesterday, someone suggested we should try everything a yongser should do and dress the way a young lady ought to, boldly and courageously, so that there will be no regrets remaining when we grow old.
There is an element of truth in what she said, i have to admit. We need to treasure our time, our youth and our vitality. Yet, transformation seems to me, too difficult to achieve. I have my own way of life, my own mode of doing things, which i get so firmly accustomed to and find it too late to change. I tend to reckon that it is all due to my nature which has been destined by my creator and nature is not sth a person can easily change even though he/she has tried terribly hard. Therefore, why bother myself to try things going against my nature? it only will lead to my uneasiness.
I'm not that kind of person,as Russell described, who always acts on principle, unstirred and inadventurous by impulse. In fact, i will certainly yield to it (impulse),as long as it emerges. However, so far, the impulses i've encountered are so limited that my life seems too orderly and a little dried up. But it does not matter, really. I still have my sheer happiness, the one not based on impulse, not against my nature, easing my sadness and pleasing my heart.